I think all followers of Christ have a “defining moment”…a moment where our blinders are taken off and we realize just how much you need Jesus everyday.
Here is my "Defining Moment".
I have mentioned that I grew up in upstate New York. I lived a modestly “blessed lifestyle" my parents were married, my older sister in I both had a lot of friends and were involved in several activities. At the end of middle school we decided to move to Wisconsin to be closer to our extended family. After moving to Wisconsin things took a dark turn in our lives…my dad lost his job, my parents divorced and my dad really started to struggle and became a lot less reliable. As the years went on his appearances in my life grew less and less and his desire for alcohol grew into an illness. In the midst of him disappearing in my life God provided a “father figure” that changed my life.
Let me introduce you to Clifford Sundsmo. He was my Grandpa. He is the reason I never felt the abandonment of my dad leaving. He truly loved like Jesus. Everyone that knew him would tell you the same thing. The impact he had on this world and the work that he did for the kingdom is life changing, as I think about it. He always had a way on enforcing rules but still being so loving and understanding. I stayed with my grandparents off and on over the years and relied on both of their opinions heavily.
On April 17, 2014 at age 67 my grandpa Cliff died of prostate cancer. My world was rocked. Some people are daddy's girls… I was a grandpa’s girl. His passing had me thinking about EVERYTHING. I started to question what I was doing with my life. Why I was in the relationship I was in and everything else. He had given me so much guidance and wisdom while he was here on earth and I found that even though I heard it, I wasn't living it. I lived the next two years completely lost watching everything crash down around me.
That was until my "defining moment". The moment I realized that it wasn't just my grandpa that I was missing in my life. It was his relationship with Christ. You see everything my grandpa did was an act of worship…when he spoke to you it was God’s words pouring out. I went on a walk that night and found myself thinking about the life I had built apart from God. It was the “American dream". I had a house…had a boyfriend that loved me and dog that loved me even more ha. I had a good 9-5 job… but I was still so empty.
So I prayed that if this isn't where God wanted me and this wasn't His plan for my life that He would pave the way for change…big change. Be careful what you ask for friends because He paved fast! At this point in my life I didn't have a car that was “just mine”, I didn't have another job lined up, and I couldn't leave my boyfriend with the full mortgage payment that he would not be able to afford alone. In three weeks time after this prayer I got my own car, my ex-boyfriend had got a new job making a ton more money and I had a job opportunity to work with 513FREE.
I truly believe there are many times in my life that could have been my "Defining Moment" but for whatever reason this was it. People often ask me how my life is so amazing and blessed and the truth is full surrender to God. He knows your hearts desires and His plan is EPIC. Trust me.
GENISIS 12.1 Now the Lord said to Abram leave your country, your family and your relatives and go to the land that I will show you. 12.2 I will make you into a great nation, and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing.
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